October 8, 2013
So I’m 19 weeks.
Yesterday, at our pre-natal class, the instructor told us to count the baby’s movement after I eat. I got do excited, like, oh my god that’s gonna be so fun! So I downloaded a fetal movement app and after dinner I broke out my phone and tried to feel the movement. Then Jay saw what I was doing and said, “You don’t do that now.” Just from that, I got super NOT EXCITED and just deleted the app. I was sad. Like what a fucking killjoy. When I’m excited about something, I’m really excited. But once I get a negative vibe, I can no longer be excited.
He looked it up and said, “it says to do it after 28 weeks.” I responded, “I don’t really care anymore.”
Sometimes I’m super excited about being pregnant and sometimes I just wish I wasn’t.